My Moments of Silence

Writing about my silences has always been a topic that lingered in the back of my mind, but never made it into any piece of writing. The idea of letting myself be vulnerable through a paper is not only a struggle because I have to put my emotions into words, but I also experience issues speaking about my troubles simply in conversation. Beginning the writing process I had to truly think about moments in my life in which I transformed my silence to help me instead of hindering myself. I thought of times during middle school in which my white peers spoke to me in ways that I did not necessarily agree with, but because I chose to play the role of the token quiet, amiable black girl I never spoke agaisnt any actions. I transformed myself by speaking up against things that I do not find favorable and this paved a way for me to speak up in day to day interactions.
Buckling down to sit and write is truly a hard process as a procrastinator. I hold belief that under pressure diamonds emerge, but I also understand that great work takes time. With this first essay my grade was a reflection of the bad habits that I needed to quit in order to put out my best work. In the paper I was able to passively convey some of my silences but due to poor writing most of my thoughts were unclear. In the next piece I hope that I learn to use words that enhance my writing, as well as properly convey my thoughts without information or meaning being lost.